Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Meb vs. Ryan according to stupid people

Unless you live under a rock, by now you know that American elite runner, Meb Keflezighi, won the Boston Marathon last Monday on Patriots Day.  And unless you also live under a rock, I'm sure you've heard about how Ryan Hall may have somehow played a part in his victory.  And regardless of whether you think Hall deserves a little bit of credit or you think he is a pompous ass, I'd like to pose one question… how many  people actually know the stories and have followed the careers of these two American elite runners?  How many of people know their race histories, amazing victories, devastating setbacks and relationship as training partners and friends?  For those that don't, a judgement on either of these men based on media coverage that only skims the surface of who they are beyond Boston 2014, doesn't carry much weight (in my opinion).

What prompted this post was an interview posted by Competitor Running, a site I follow and frequent on Facebook.  In listening to Bob Babbitt interview Hall, I can see how Hall comes across a bit arrogant at times, but he also had a lot of validity to what he was saying.  In other words, because I've read much of Hall's autobiography, I can hear his personality come through (not trying to act like I know the guy, but reading someone's story gives you insight into the way they think and act).  The comments under the posting infuriated me, mostly because people thought Hall was taking credit for Meb's victory.  NO, he was NOT!  Meb ran a fantastic race and deserved every bit of that win.  He was strategic and in top shape.  His race was executed precisely as he had planned and probably visualized over and over in training.  Meb Keflezighi was the sole first place winner of the Boston Marathon.

But Ryan Hall did help his friend.  No one can say that Meb wouldn't have won anyway.  He likely would have.  No one will ever know.  But to bash and make such hateful comments such as "Ryan Hall is an ass.  Dude hasn't run a good race in over 2 years.  Showed his true colors when he pulled out of the London Olympics.  He needs to just go away.", shows how absolutely stupid people are when they dare to publicly comment on what they DON'T know.

Ryan Hall holds the fastest American record for the marathon at 2:04 (and change).  Meb's PR was in Boston, 3 minutes and 59 seconds slower than Hall's PR.  But Ryan has never won a major marathon and Meb has.  Place is what gets you the win when racing… any race.  That is a fact.  Therefore, many people have commented that time doesn't matter and the better runner is the one that gets the higher place and therefore, Meb is better than Ryan.  Oh is that so?  I am certain I have placed higher in shorter (or longer distance) races than some people that have qualified for Boston.  And those people with qualifying times have been able to participate in the Boston Marathon.  But my place in any race did not get me into Boston.  And hypothetically, even if I had won a marathon on a Boston qualifying marathon course with a 4 hour time (because there were only 3 runners :), I would not be going to Boston.  My time, and time only, will get me there.

So that argument is really, really stupid.

I have followed the careers of both these men.  They are both top notch, exceptional athletes as well as men of stellar character.  They are both devout Christians, which again, if one knew that, he wouldn't be commenting that "Hall only does things for his own glory.  No one else."  Dear God, idiot, read something about him or perhaps visit the Hall Foundation website and then see what a stupid comment that is!  This is a man whom his teammates respect.  Otherwise, why would they listen to him on the race course?  If I had trained my butt off and was in the lead pack in Boston and was running with some guy who was only in it for himself, there isn't a snowball's chance in hell I would waste a second even considering his suggestions.  But they did.  And one of the lead Americans, Nicholas Arciniaga, said this:

 “So we kept it slow. I don’t know if that did anything to help. But those guys had to work to catch Meb. I think Ryan was really smart to (think to) be able to say that (in the middle of the race).”

Doesn't sound like a bitter and bullied runner to me!  Sounds like he knows and respects Hall's character and opinions and therefore, CHOSE to follow his advice.

In 2007, after the New York olympic trials marathon, Meb was crawling around his hotel room as the result of a hip fracture that denied him a spot in the olympics that year.  He couldn't walk and had also just learned that another training partner and elite runner, Ryan Shay, had dropped dead on the course.  He described that as the "low point in my career".  So what did he do?  He describes a moment when he just cried and prayed and said, "God, if you want me to continue doing this… which I believe you have called me to do…then help me see that.  Otherwise, make it clear that I need to retire."  No wonder I got choked up watching him break the tape 7 years later in Boston.  And this was not just any year.  I know exactly why Meb Keflezighi won that race.  And so does he.  In everything that happens to him from the tragic to the glorious, he turns to God.  His day was coming and he trusted that and at 38 years old, an age that is tough to compete at this level, he pulled off the seemingly impossible in the most meaningful Boston Marathon in history.

As for Hall, who hasn't had low points in their careers?  Running is a career for Hall and like Meb, Ryan feels that God called him to run starting in the 8th grade.  Part of being so devoted to the Lord is learning to keep that faith alive and strong during some very difficult times.  It is easy to love and praise God when life is easy and we are winning.  It's a whole other story when life is hard.  I do believe it is the most faithful that are tested far more than the luke warm.  And so it is also obvious to me why such an amazing athlete like Ryan Hall has had a couple of pretty miserable years.  He has been riddled with injuries and has had to pull from many races.  He had high hopes for Boston and was so disappointed with his performance.  But knowing what I have learned about Ryan Hall, I do not believe for one minute he is taking the glory of this race from Meb.  And I believe very much that he tried hard to sacrifice a bit (once he knew he didn't have it in him that day to win or come close) so that an American, one that he loves and respects, could win.

I hope that this ridiculous attack against Ryan Hall stops soon.  While everyone is entitled to an opinion, it is much easier to put credence into the opinion of someone who knows what these guys are about on a personal level.  And they are both wonderful guys and A-MAZING athletes.

See?   All my reading and stalking the elites isn't so futile after all :)




Tuesday, April 15, 2014

It sucked!

When I started this blog in 2010, it was a way for me to do something I love (write), as well as a fun way to show the progression of one's mind and body in the process of going after a goal such as qualifying for the Boston marathon.  While writing for some is a painful and mundane act, for others it is an outlet… a source of therapy, if you will, much like running.  I guess I am crazy enough to need both types of therapy.  I can honestly say I didn't expect to still be blogging about this 4 1/2 years later, that's for sure.  If you would have asked me back then, I would have guessed a year, tops.  I figured I'd have a couple of Boston Marathons under my belt by now.  Heck, it would be an annual event like it is for so many of Boston's participants!

I sit here dumbfounded that it has not happened.  I sit here, still in shock over the horrible race that came from the Athen's Marathon.

I don't want to recap Sunday.    I did in an email to my running group, who tracked our progress throughout the race, but that is as far as I want to go with it.  From start to finish it was an exhausting battle of mind and body and to that, all I can say is, based on my training and my experience, it should not have been.  Yes, it was warm, but the temps were not the only thing affecting the race.

But I do want to touch on something that may be a pressing question to many.  Since Saturday's post was about my reliance on God during that race, I fear that many will think that the prayers for a successful race were pointless.  Did God answer "yes" to my ever so specific prayers and to the ever so specific prayers of all our wonderful families and friends also praying for us?  No, He did not. Could He have made everything perfect?  Tweaked my mind?  Given strength to my legs?  Cooled it down a bit?  Of course He could have.  He is God.  Am a just a wee bit perplexed as to why He didn't?  Of course I am.  I am human.

But there is a difference between being perplexed and losing faith in God.  I always try to remember that we are like children in every sense of the word.  We are like the two year old asking for the cookie before dinner.  Or the teenager asking to go to an unsupervised party.  We say please, use our manners and do everything we are "supposed" to do in hopes of being granted a certain privilege.  Because of doing those things, we feel entitled to the reward, i.e.., cookie and party.  But our parents know that neither of those things are a good idea, though as a two year old or a teenager (who in my opinion have about the same amount of egocentrism), it seems like the meanest and most unfair thing on earth.  After all, what can be so wrong with something that tastes so good or is so fun?  Now I am certainly not saying that running a good race since I put in the training and have the physical ability is asking for too much.  I am simply trying to drive home the point that my small human mind is not always privy to understanding the incredible and almighty God.  Much like a child cannot understand a parent's reasoning.

There are stories, countless stories, of people who have seen God's purpose in life's trials only after something happens.  A few people last year said that perhaps there was purpose in me NOT being in Boston in 2013.  Who knows where my family would have been waiting for me?  Who knows where I would have been?  I just don't believe that random things that happen in life are just random.  There is a method to God's music.  Most of the time we can't handle the fact that we don't know the method.

There is another element to the race that has come into light after some reflection.  I wanted to go into the race and make sure I offered up my miles for others.  It was the beginning of Holy Week and the beginning of Christ's passion, a time of unimaginable suffering both physically and mentally, though his mental suffering started long before his betrayal and crucifixion.  And heck, it worked like a charm at Burning River, where I had a lot of physical suffering but not mental or psychological.  And I could handle the physical suffering.  Certainly I could get the same results!  But as I ran, I struggled… terribly.  And I won't lie, much of it was anger and trying to calm that anger.  I fought and I fought and I fought for 26.51 miles (because that is how long that f%*k%ng marathon was) with waves of different emotions.  From start to finish, it was the greatest challenge, mind and body, I have ever encountered.  And though I do not DARE compare that type of suffering to the type that Jesus suffered, I can certainly draw some correlation to what it meant.

What I wanted with that race was to glorify God and run with a thankful heart.  I wanted to offer all that I had to give for all of which I have been blessed.

I ran with all that I had, in a vicious battle, mostly mental, for over 4 hours and was left with a race time that was 30 minutes off my goal.

And though I won't know until I die and I hand God a lengthy list of "WTF?" questions for Him to answer, perhaps this race was more glorious than I know.

Have a blessed and safe Easter!




Saturday, April 12, 2014

Here we go… again!

Tomorrow is a big day.  Tomorrow I lace up with two of my friends and we run, no, RACE the Athens, Ohio marathon.  I will admit, I am nervous, but appropriately so.  It would be odd for me not to be even though I have gotten many well wishes and comments of "You are ready!"  "You will crush this!"  "Don't worry!", (ha ha… that one is my favorite :).  Honestly, my very favorite comment was from Suttan, who I ran with on Thursday morning.  We were discussing the weather, which has decided to be very warm (80 degrees).  Keep in mind I have mostly trained in freezing and sub freezing temps and there is a phenomenon known as acclimatization.  No, it won't be 80 by the 8 am start, but it will most certainly be 70 or so by the almost noon finish.

Anyway, as I voiced my concerns over the temps, sweet Erin tried to dismiss my worries, while Suttan said, "I would be worried too.  I would not like that."  Now while most people would have looked at her like "How could you say that to this head case??", I so appreciated her validating my concerns and making not feel crazy to be worried because yes, temperatures CAN and DO affect performance.  Do I really think they will?  No.  I think I will do well.  But I loved, LOVED that she said that to me.  She was still very positive and encouraging.  So thanks, Suttan :)

Of course I am nervous.  I have toed the line in a quest for a BQ in many races past.  I have felt very ready at some of those races.  The same thing will happen tomorrow.  I will start the race, confident I can get the goal.  I am planning a slightly different strategy, however, and I have the utmost wonderful pacer and race partners to run with.  My running friend, Greg, will also be running.  He is as strong and ready as they come and I cannot wait to race with these two.   Sarah will be pacing us.  She will also be wearing my Garmin.  So I will have no clue what pace I am running throughout the race.  She has strict instructions to pace easily in the beginning…. in fact, I hope our first splits reflect a slightly slower time than what I need.  The course runs along the river in Athens and is out and back.  We run down river on the way back and my hope is to take it easy in the first half and run a nice negative split.  I run best that way in training, especially during long runs.  So we are mixing thing up and hopefully, we come in right where we want.  Keeping my head in check will be the biggest challenge.  All the "snap out of it!" advice is not helpful in the least.  I am who I am.  Yes I have an element of control over which thoughts I choose to let linger in my head, but I also cannot "trick" myself.  I'm smarter than that :)

And so, as always, I turn to God, who lovingly whispers, "I got it.  Don't worry."  I have absolutely no qualms about praying for my race.  I don't think it's selfish or unimportant to ask for help with something that is important to me.  God LOVES when we rely on Him for everything.  I know that if it does not counter His will for me or if there is not, yet again, some lesson to be taken from failure, all will be well.  I know this.  I also know that if I can't trust God with the little things in my life (and trust me, add perspective in and this is little), then I will never be able to trust Him with the big stuff.  So go ahead, pray for your races.  Pray for strength, pray for endurance, pray for mental fortitude.  God is thrilled when you do and He always shows up!  Because spirituality and running are so intertwined with me,  I think that the day I am racing is eerily relevant.  Tomorrow is Palm Sunday.  The gospel will reflect the betrayal and handing over of Jesus to be beaten and ultimately crucified.  Certainly reflecting on the significance of tomorrow's gospel will make a difference for me in how I choose to run.

I'm still nervous, though :)

All nerves aside, I have had a great taper.  I am well rested and carbed up, though my body is a bit off kilter from all the carbs.  I have slept in most days this week… yesterday until 6:30!!!  That is huge for me.  I must not be THAT nervous if I'm sleeping well.  I got to have lunch with my parents yesterday, which was awesome.  It isn't too often I get to just sit with them and chat about all sorts of things.  Last weekend, they were the main crew (along with my 12 year old nephew) for my brother Jack's 150 mile ultra marathon (sigh).  My dad told me the story of how at one point, he and my mom trekked up a muddy, steep hill en route to an aid station.  It was around midnight and they had only a small flash light to guide their way.  All these runners were going by with high tech head lamps and flashlights.  Here they were, climbing with one flash light.  When they reached the aid station, the workers and runners all clapped and cheered as they thought my parents were DOING THE RACE!  I thought that was hilarious.  My parents are 77 and 76.  And honestly, the energy it takes to crew an ultra is immense.  Here they were, having a blast doing it.  My dad describes the scene as a "happy asylum".  I got a kick out of that description because he is so right.  You have the craziest people on earth who are so kind, encouraging and polite.  They are also in the throws of physical misery and exhaustion WHILE being kind, encouraging and polite.  It really is no mystery to me why so many are beginning to discover the world of ultra running.  The atmosphere at the races is just awesome.

I love that I have these two people as an example of who I want to be like when I get older.  My mother was still having babies in her 40s and many years after the youngest is gone, married and mothering her own children, they are off crewing a grueling and difficult race on little sleep.  Their description of the experience showed nothing but pure joy and pride for their son, who completed the race.  I was very lucky to be born to these people.

Prayers for Greg, Sarah and me greatly appreciated!